I have a strong wish for control. I feel a need to impose order on the perceived chaos of my internal and external world. This manifests in various ways, from meticulously planning my days to obsessively organizing my surroundings. It’s an attempt to create a sense of predictability. I try to manage the anxiety that […]
There’s a strange comfort in the familiar rut. The predictable patterns and routines define my daily life. These patterns are less than ideal. They contribute to my feelings of stagnation and discontent. Yet, they offer a sense of security and predictability that change often lacks. Change, even positive change, can feel threatening. It disrupts the […]
My life isn’t usually punctuated by dramatic, earth-shattering crises. Instead, it’s underscored by a persistent, low-level hum of worry, a soundtrack of “what ifs” and “maybe this will go horribly wrong.” It’s like having a tiny, perpetually anxious radio station playing in the background of my mind, broadcasting a never-ending stream of potential catastrophes and […]
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